2.20.2010

It's hard...

I'm not breastfeeding and I'm not pregnant... but I've still got those horrible horrible eating habits.  I'm truly struggling at this point to find my way back into "weight-loss" mode.  I was stuck at 163 forever.  Now that I'm not breastfeeding but still consuming the same amount of calories, I'm at 168.

This is a big struggle for me.  I felt really good about myself at 163, but now that I've gained a solid 5 pounds I feel really shitty about myself.  I know 5 pounds isn't that big of a deal- but what is a big deal is the fact that I can't seem to get a good grip on my eating habits.

I really thought I'd be at goal by now... and I totally could be with more self control.  I've got the whole gym routine down.  I love going to the gym.  Granted, I should do more weights... but I am really loving my cardio routines right now.  Eating habits are what screws me... and it sucks.

So I need to start holding myself more accountable... and maybe, just maybe, I'll start updating this blog more... but who knows.  I know this part of WLS would be interesting to read about when I was just starting out... to see what it's like years later, once the novelty of it wears thin.  Not that having WLS was a novelty... but the pouch worked amazingly well those first 6 months.

Anyway... let's hope I can get back into some healthy eating routine soon.  I would love to be at goal by summer.