2.20.2010

It's hard...

I'm not breastfeeding and I'm not pregnant... but I've still got those horrible horrible eating habits.  I'm truly struggling at this point to find my way back into "weight-loss" mode.  I was stuck at 163 forever.  Now that I'm not breastfeeding but still consuming the same amount of calories, I'm at 168.

This is a big struggle for me.  I felt really good about myself at 163, but now that I've gained a solid 5 pounds I feel really shitty about myself.  I know 5 pounds isn't that big of a deal- but what is a big deal is the fact that I can't seem to get a good grip on my eating habits.

I really thought I'd be at goal by now... and I totally could be with more self control.  I've got the whole gym routine down.  I love going to the gym.  Granted, I should do more weights... but I am really loving my cardio routines right now.  Eating habits are what screws me... and it sucks.

So I need to start holding myself more accountable... and maybe, just maybe, I'll start updating this blog more... but who knows.  I know this part of WLS would be interesting to read about when I was just starting out... to see what it's like years later, once the novelty of it wears thin.  Not that having WLS was a novelty... but the pouch worked amazingly well those first 6 months.

Anyway... let's hope I can get back into some healthy eating routine soon.  I would love to be at goal by summer.

5 comments:

Melanie said...

*hugs* I can imagine it must be tough to keep up the same level of intensity for all this time.

hiyaluv said...

keep your head up! You can do it! :) Do you write down what you eat? I need to start doing that. I hear that it really makes a difference but i have yet to purchase a food journal. hmm...I also need to get my caboose to the gym. When I lived in California I was going religiously once a day and I looked and felt amazing. Now that I am in dreary, winter weather, all I want to do is hibernate and get underneath a blanket. I do not want to work out and it is so depressing. :/ I need to get motivated asap!

Lisa Brown said...

I recommend reading Skinny Bitch. it REALLY does a good job of making you really think about what you're putting in your mouth... and whether it's healthy or not. It also highly stresses a vegan lifestyle.

spiffy said...

aw, I'm sorry. It's hard when other people say "it's only 5 pounds" but you know what feels good on you.

Kayla said...

It's a hard routine to get into. I totally understand. I hope you keep your head up and know it takes time and work. You've come too far to get discouraged now!

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