I'm also starting to get nervous. Food has always been such a big part of my life... it's comfort to me. I'm not worried about something going wrong- I have complete confidence in my doctor- she's amazing. I don't have as much confidence in myself. I am terrified that I'm going to mess this up. I'm terrified that I'm going to be miserable and hungry. But I'm also terrified of NOT doing this surgery. I'm pre-diabetic, I can't comfortably ride on an airplane (ok, I know no one is "comfortable" on an airplane, but I can't fit in a seat very well), and I get out of breath so easily when I play with Deacon.
I'm nervous about day to day life after this surgery... Like I said, I eat for comfort, but I also eat to alleviate boredom. Damien asked if I talked to my therapist about this... of course I haven't- because I know his answer. I need to find a hobby- something to occupy myself... something to take the place of food. This is all psychological... it's not just about finding a new hobby, it's about mentally being able to replace food with something else. If this were that easy, I wouldn't be heavy right now, right?
One month from today and I will be one day post surgery. Wow.